Swimming

I successfully swam without Thia’s assistance three times this week. I have manifested Pat, a woman who got diagnosed with MS and was told that she only had five years to live, to assist me on the post-swim end of things. It is becoming increasingly clear to me that the Chinese proverb Emily sent me about life being like an echo, really does hold true…what you put out comes back.

The conglomerate of elderly women in the locker room is eager to help me. I find this endearing. My ability to get off the Hoyer lift – and stand – is exciting! So much so that when I did, I had to pause, because I was in a degree of disbelief.


What is a waste of energy is getting even clearer to me. Including nuances like even having a thought that something is wrong or judging another person for something or being aware that I’m trying to control something that is out of my control (which is basically everything!).

I could get myself in a bundle about all the things that I want to do and need help with and feel motivated to do when in the company of others, and not so motivated when alone. Like editing. Or, writing in general. It’s like I look to the outside for feedback and sustenance to keep me going. I am being asked to do a lot of behind the scenes work without that.

I never knew how much I didn’t feel my body until I started feeling it. Ever since being double wanded by Jennifer, I have experienced a remarkable unveiling of me in the sensory department. I feel my feet on the foot pedals and my butt on the seat cushion. The pain has subsided and a sensory phenomena increased.

I’ve taken to doing the Art of Living breathing program every morning. I find it very valuable. I’m glad to be on board with it again.

I’m honoring what I feel like doing and not pushing myself to promote the wand or even myself as a practitioner right now. The way I figure it, I must be due for more inner healing work for me to be given this amount of time to do that. So, instead of turning it into a problem, I’m feeling grateful that I have what I have. I don’t have to go out there and sabotage it or put myself in a position where I’m not going to heal because I create stress. Like Jennifer said, I’ve got a sweet deal! If the Affinity Healing Center is going to happen, it can only happen from a place of my walking the talk.

For me not to have written for five days is out of character. I have been reading the Miracle of the Breath, listening to the Power of Now, working in the gardens with Ellen, and allowing myself to be. It is a good thing.